So the theme for this weeks 'The Gallery' is 'Green.' I actually thought this was tougher than the previous two weeks themes, mainly because I wanted to do something different than take a nature shot. (Basically because I am a terrible photographer it would pale in comparison to some of the amazing ones I am sure we will see this week!)
Therefore I thought I would do my own interpretation on the theme.
Yes that is me. It is the most hideous picture I could find. I was drunk at the time but thats no excuse.
Green eyed monster. Jealousy. Envy. Green with envy.
However you say it, we have all been jealous at times. It is human nature.
I have found recently that my green eyed monster has come out on several occasions, always at the same subject and it is not something I am proud of.
Going back to work.
I have been lucky to meet some lovely friends since having my daughter, mainly through my NCT classes and going to local baby groups. I have met people from all walks of life, but a lot of the women that I have met do not have to go back to work and are going to be Stay at Home Mums.
I always thought that I was quite career orientated but since having Mads I have absolutely no desire to go back to work until she is older and goes to nursery properly. It's not that I hate my job, its just that I want to be at home with my daughter and not have to leave her with someone else when she is less than a year old.
Don't get me wrong. I have absolutely nothing against people who go back to work full time or people who choose to stay at home full time- it is their choice. But I want to be at home with my daughter. Not all the time, I do still want to go back to work a couple of days a week. It isn't the fact that they are off work all the time that gets me jealous. It is that they have the choice.
We are very lucky to have a wonderful home which I am very proud of. Unfortunately with said home comes a massive mortgage and a lot of outgoings. Basically we have issues every way you look at it. We can't afford for me to go back to work full time due to the cost of childcare and travel. We can't afford for me to go back to work part time because my part time wage won't even cover the cost of my half of the outgoing bills. And we most certainly can't afford for me to be making no money at all.
And thats why my green eyed monster comes out. Just because I wish for once we didn't have to worry about money. Compared to a lot of people I know we are so fortunate, we both earn decent wages and have a lovely home, but unfortunately all our money is tied up. In a few years it will be fine but not at the moment. I just wish I could afford enough to spend time with my daughter and not worry about every single penny.
So thats what is making me 'green' at the moment. A slight different interpretation on the theme I know.
Head over to Tara's blog 'Sticky Fingers' to see some more normal green themes.
P.S I am going to win the lottery so don't feel too sorry for me.
P.P.S I don't look like that in real life....honest.